Ayahuasca retreat reviews

The first ceremony, I felt deeply blessed

I didn’t expect that my first Ayahuasca experience would be just excellent. I had read many posts saying that it might be scary or evoke many traumatic experiences for the first time. At first, I was worried that I would be scared, but during the whole process, I did not feel fear at all. I felt fantastic and so peaceful at all times, except for the discomfort in my throat when I vomited.

The aura of Cesar, the shaman, is very sincere and accepting. When I first entered the ceremony, I could feel that he hoped to lead me into a new world of safety, kindness, warmth, love, softness, and mutual connection. This sense of security made me relax and gave me a feeling that I was deeply blessed!

Then, my body suddenly became lighter. At this very moment, the shaman’s singing sounded in perfect sync. For the first time in my life, I felt that my body was no longer restraining me! Suddenly, I understood what the movie “Lucy” was about as suddenly my body was freed from any constraints and was highly free. I felt that my spirit was everywhere in the universe, and my body was no longer a constraint of my soul!

Then, all kinds of colorful and beautiful geometric shapes came to me, which thrilled me. I was busy putting these fantastic shapes into beautiful patterns while sighing in my heart. At this time, I understood sincerely why humans want to explore the universe. Nothing is more attractive than the universe and freedom!

My physical reactions were synchronized with the shaman’s singing during the process. Sometimes, my intestines flow in my stomach when I hear his singing.

Then, I started to feel like vomiting. I vomited for a while. Then I sat down and felt my breathing. Ah, I have never felt that my body is so clean! I am very, very clean, and I immediately understood the deep meaning of the word purification. This is not a literal understanding but a profound experience. I am so fortunate that I have got this precious experience.

Ayahuasca efect in my body

While vomiting, I felt a little uncomfortable in my throat, and my grandfather suddenly popped into my mind. My grandfather passed away very young, and my mother had never seen him. But I heard my grandfather was mute and couldn’t speak when I was young. I am suddenly profoundly connected to my grandfather’s sadness at that very moment, and tears burst into my eyes.

But this feeling passed quickly. During this process, I also discovered that my body’s reaction precedes my consciousness. Sometimes, I felt the tears flow down my cheeks and itch, and then I felt sadness. During this process, I immediately understood a lot of sadness in the world, and my heart was filled with compassion and tenderness.

Then I lay down feeling a little dizzy. As soon as I lay down, I started yawning. It seemed like I had never yawned so thoroughly in my life! After yawning a few times, my whole body felt incredibly relaxed. My body felt so refreshed and comfortable!

In the next stage, I suddenly entered a very bright room. Many beautiful paintings hung in the room, but most were black and white brushstrokes without much color. The whole room was spotless. I looked at those paintings and found that I could see very clearly. I could see very, very fine brushstrokes very clearly. I looked at these paintings, and various beautiful faces flashed rapidly on the pictures, including several beautiful faces of brown girls as graceful as mermaids.

Then the shaman’s singing stopped, and I could slowly feel my body again, but I felt very relaxed and peaceful, and there was still a lot of tenderness and love in my heart.

I sat on the mat for a while, then stood up, moved my body, and felt so clean and refreshed. I blurted out, I don’t need anything anymore! Yes, I am already complete on my own.